Saturday, April 16, 2005
i wanna be a butterfly. Fly away from this undesirable place . Can anyone help?i dont wanna feel alone. its not my buds. its my home, or rather my mom.its not a home anyone. its just a place that i isolate myself from the so-called family members. donno whether its my problem or not. i just don feel like entertaining them anymore esp. my mom. i love her. but does she know?i was watching a drama and was crying like hell and i asked myself, " am i crying becos of the show or isit i feel empty?"waikit : u knw how it feels to b left alone by ur loved 1. when they can b wif u,
bt they choose not toi wanna let ya know that i know it damn bloody well . i guess no one knows it better den i do. i just said to be my mom's pillar. but who will be mine? i want my mom. but she will nv understand how i feel. i've talked and said my piece. she choose to neglect. i'm tired. i'm pressurized. i'm fked up. i'm sad. i'm disappointed. i'm anything but happy.. is it just me or what? or everyone experience this? i donno. seriously, i donno. i'm in a mess right now and i know that its time for me to only concentrate on my studies. i wont kill myself. cos i'm still hopeful that my life will be better tml . cos i know that the more i cry, the braver i'll become and sooner or later, i can depend on myself. just like before. to cindy and waikit : i'm sorry i cant help. it seems like i'm in deeper shit den both of you.but don give up on each other, don be like me and my mom oks? anything must call and update me ok? though i cant resolve it for you guys, but i can listen and cry with you, curse and swear with you. so anything do gimme a call and scream your lungs out together. =)
to all my buds* : i love you guys and thank you alot. =)
anything please call me and share with me ok? =)